¿Con qué limpiará el joven su camino?

Una vez un hombre llamado David escribió “¡Ojalá fuesen ordenados mis caminos, para guardar tus estatutos! (Salmo 119:5.)

Muchas veces creemos que debemos estar bien para buscarle o entregar nuestra vida completamente al Él, por temor a ser rechazados o avergonzados, por el estado de nuestra vida. Luchamos todos los días, por arreglar algo de nuestro interior, y lo que logramos es coleccionar fracasos día tras día; pero cada vez con menos fuerza, por que ya no la tenemos…

¿Cuando traes a un zapatero un zapato, cuando está sin estrenar o cuando está roto, sin tapas, y deforme?. ¿Que harías tu si fueras un zapatero y te traen un zapato nuevo?, no tendrías que hacer nada, no tendrías trabajo. Pero si te traen un zapato que da lastima, tendrías trabajo, y sería un honor ver ese zapato tomando forma nuevamente. No te importaría lo roto, mal oliente, ni usado que esté, solamente que necesita ser reparado.

Así es con el Señor, a Él no le importa tu condición, Él ve el trabajo que tiene que hacer en tí. No importa el estado en que te encuentres, HOY hay oportunidad para ti, solo trae ante su Presencia tu Corazón, y permite que Él lo repare como debe ser; no como tu quieres y en la forma que tu decides; sino como Él ya lo determinó. ¿Cómo hacer esto? A SOLAS CON ÉL, búscale aunque no tengas nada que decir, escoge tu el momento y se sincero con Él.

“¿Con qué limpiará el joven su camino? CON GUARDAR SU PALABRA” Salmo:119:9

Hey, its been a while...

I remember having time to do all this things but now I really don't know where time goes anymore. I remember enjoying writing about me and the ones around me. I guess today is one of those days when you feel like talking and there is no one around to listen. Everybody seems too busy or not in the mood to listen. I don't blame you... I've had that attitude too. So I was wondering how many people around me has felt the need to talk and I didn't listen. I'm sorry. I guess that's why I'm writing again at this moment, because I have the need to be listened to.

Today is one of those days that nothing seems to go right for me and at the end of the day I'm so exhausted thinking and feeling I keep messing up. Today is one of those days I feel everything is my fault, and even take the blame for the things that are not, just because I feel guilty... and feeling guilty is not a good feeling. It's weird, I just woke up feeling like this and there wasn't really a reason to feel this way but I did. Today one or two subjects came up to the table and Edgar and I didn't agree at all, other days I wouldn't worry about it, maybe tomorrow he would understand I'm always right lol, but not today. It wasn't really a big deal, I mean we can talk about it tomorrow and we would agree on something. My son has grown so much and has his own personality and ways on doing things, but sometimes he behaves like.... I don't even want to get into it. Edgar and I were raised so differently...and I'm not saying I was raised better than him but I guess that whatever you saw growing up is normal and good for you. Sometimes we really don't agree and he shows Jr one way and I'll show him another, at the end of the day my kiddo ends up so confused he doesn't know how to behave. It's so frustrating when I see my kid doing things I don't agree to, and to my husband is so normal and ok. It makes me feel guilty, It makes me wonder if I'm doing a good job being a mom. Geez, being a mom its the biggest responsibility ever. I want my kid to be the best he can be and sometimes I seem to forget that I'm not raising him by myself its Edgar's responsibility too and he wants him to be the best he could be too is just that we don't always agree. After a while it gets to me. How can I know if I'm doing a good job being a mom? Do I have to wait 20 years to see if I did a good job or a bad one. Its my responsibility to be a good mom. Its Edgar's responsibility to be a good dad, but how can we know I f we both think we're right? Sometimes I give in, other times Edgar does. But how can I be sure???

Anyway, I guess May, and all this "Mother's Day" thing got to me... Seeing all my friend talking about their moms and why they are so good mothers. Others blaming their moms for so many things. I want my kiddo to at least think of me as not the best but a 'good' mom, I want him to be proud of me and I'm so scared he would blame me for something bad in his life because he is my everything, my little boy, a piece of me and I wouldn't do ANYTHING to make him unhappy or not proud but would he agree with me in 20 years from now? Would he think I'm good? or bad? I don't have the answer I'm dying to have and I guess I will have to wait all those years to find out and I'm so scared because I don't have the right answers all the time and I don't know how to deal with things at time. I don't want to feel guilty in 20 years from now, so God helps me. Oh please do!

At the end of the day after some tears, after some hugs and comforting words from my husband and my son's 'I Love You's' I know I don't know it all and as a scared as I am I will do my best to do the right things and hoping of some day hearing my boy say I did a good job. As frustrating as it is there is nothing else I can do. So I pray God to give me wisdom, strength and faith to do my best. No one but Him can really help me. So I'm at peace knowing we are in His hands and part of His perfect plan... so my <3 rests in Him.

We are blessed, we are thankful.

Tomorrow is my son's birthday party and on Sunday he'll be turning 2 years old. I'm happy to have him in my life, to be able to be with him everyday and teach him many things. He is been a blessing, our happiness, our everything. Our little boy is growing so fast. We can hardly keep up with him. Tomorrow he will have a birthday party and We are thanful for the people aroud us who love and care for our Jr. For helping us and being there for us. Today I just wanted to share that we feel blessed, and loved and we are thankful for our Jr. Thank you God... Because without you all this wouldn't be possible.

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What a hot glue gun and some free time can do!!!

Those who know me... Know that I like to decorate stuff... Anything.
I've helped friends decorate for their events... Like weddings and quinces parties. I have some imagination and I like to put it on the table. Those who I have worked with know that I like to do it by my self because I have a vision and when someone else with another vision is helping or trying to help... It gets two different visions that don't work together.... Proof of that was sadly my little sister Mary on her sweet 16... She trusted me... And I was in charge of decorating the place... But when I got to the place one of my uncles( very loved by me but with another vision) had arranged the tables and chairs the opposite way... Not only that, he decided to make his own decorations... Well my decorations and his decorations didn't match... But it was too late... I guess we both tried our best but we had different visions... Lol
For my friends wedding, she knew what she wanted and I just helped her do the arrangements... I decorated an arch for her and a silk roses bouquet( my favorite bouquet yet to make) ... Sadly I don't have any pics to prove it.
For another friend I did the table decorations and I got to decorate her some other stuff... I will ask her for pics to show you guys later on.
Returning to the subject... My son's b-day is coming up in Two weeks and my husband let's me decorate how I want( with a budget) and I'm so exited. Well, my Jr is into Disney Cars Movie, so we decided to do it with that theme. Checking out the Cars cakes I came to find out that to decorate them with the cars colors which are black and red, the bakeries use so much food coloring the cake tastes bitter. So i'm just getting a regular cake with no decorations on it. So there was my quest to find something to decorate my baby's cake. I got this cutouts at the craft store... Some gift tissue paper,some wire and a hot glue gun... Everything came out to $7.00 or less and this is what I came out with. I hope it helps you... Save some $$$ and do it yourself.

So this big piece is going to be in the middle of the cake and the rest of the cartoon cutouts around the big piece. I will post other pictures when it's all together, including the balloon table centerpiece and other stuff I have in mind.




Well this is me and my little creations.

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You are a mysterious God and I love you

And He said...
" It would've been the same thing"
Have you ever wondered how things would've been if you had made other choices in life?
I did, not too long ago. I even post it on facebook.. "I wish I was 14 again".
I started wondering if my life would've been better or worst... I started doubting my choices and questioning myself in so many ways.
On Saturday I had a dinner with the Jovenes Adultos at my friend's house. She came up with the subject from out of nowhere... She was sharing her friends experience, she was questioning herself just like me, but she went further. This girl actually went to look for this person that she thought would've changed her life... And at the begining everything seemed perfectly, some time went by and she notice that it was actually her visualizing things like this but nothing was even close to perfect. It was actually just nonsense... And she thought to herself that it wasn't worth it so she walked away from this person. And she said "It would've been the same thing".
But I wasn't listening to my friends voice... It was actually God talking to my life, to my heart.
Hey, I wasn't questioning my marriage... Because like I said before I know God made 'us' for each other. And yes there had been times I have questioned my marriage, because I was mad, because times were rough, because things didn't go my way... But always at the end, in the middle of the madness of our lives we know we have each other and we love each other and I thank God for that.
This time I was questioning myself about the people I had put on a side on my life. The people I decided to walk away from. The friendships I decided were not worth it. The choices I think changed my life... Yes,
Maybe I did questioned my marriage... Because a lot of the choices I would've changed May have taken me really far from where I'm standing at. But no way... I love my husband and my son means everything to me! But in the middle of my questioning God said.. It would've been the same thing.
Things are the way we see them... My life, my husband, my son, the ministry could be perfect, but if I don't think it's worth it then it won't. Our choices may had taken us really far from where we started or where we would've love to be at but nothing would make us happy If we don't apreciate what we have, whom we have and what we do.
Today I know that I love my life and everything in it, it's not close to even being perfect... It's rough on some sides, but it's worth every second of it and I'm thankful for it!!!
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Remember those days when I used to write blogs!!!

Yep, those were the days... But I'll come back... I still have so much to say!!! Keep checking!
But for now.... I wish you a Merry Christmas!
God Bless!

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My Child, My Teacher!

It's been 6 days since the day I quit my job andI've been taking full care of my child...I have to admit I’m exhausted...I am tired sleepy hungry and sore. I went back to work after I had Jr...He was only 6 months old and I guess I lost track of how much he is grown since then. He has changed so much, time went so fast. I remember like it was yesterday that I got pregnant ( By the way, I loved to be pregnant... I loved my belly and and I even felt the most beautiful pregnant woman in the world....I did) I even remember the first time we got home with this cute little baby and we would stare at him for hours not even knowing what to do or to expect... I never thought he would be this cute and I can't even express the love I feel for him. Today he wants to be a big boy... He doesn't need so much help doing things... He doesn't talk that much yet (He only says mama, papa, ma(which he calls my mom) and emo(which is Elmo) ahi esta and no) but still will let you know exactly what he wants. Now that he is 16 months I've started to notice how much he is like Edgar and me. He is kind of grumpy sometimes...and gets frustrated easily when he can't do or get something he wants...Jr likes things his way or he wont like it...Just like me!
And he is so sweet and silly just like his daddy. He is really fast to learn and quickly picks up what you are telling him. Now, he wants us to play with him all the time and even chooses the song he wants me to sing when he is going to sleep (He likes "Los 3 Cochinitos" de Cri-cri 'El Grillito Cantor') He lets me know when he wants me to change his diapers...He doesn't like to wear soggy diapers, he demands to be changed immediately and loves wearing cologne ( he wears the Kung Fu Panda Cologne). Lately he is obsessed with Elmo... the doll, the books, balloons, posters and the song but he doesn't like to watch the whole cartoon. He likes to scream 'gooooool' when daddy is watching soccer but still doesn't get he is not suppose to scream when the opponents score... He loves dancing, he really enjoys that part of church...Music, specially since he found out his daddy plays the drums, so now I have a hard time trying to keep him in his seat because he wants to run to the altar with daddy to play the drums. He loves cookies...pretty much any kind of cookie. Jr loves taking showers and playing with water he gets exited doing things just like us. He amazes me every single day and some days I learn even more from him than he learns from me. Babies are little persons with feeling and goals, with good days and bad days, with smiles and tears, with accomplishments and frustrations... But one thing I've learned from him is that no matter how many times he tries to do something and fails, even thought he might cry and get frustrated, he keeps trying until he gets what he wants. My child is teaching me how to be a mommy, how to be his friend when he wants to play, or when he feels down, even how to be a better daughter and how to be a better person… How to be exited about the little things in life because there are many little things in life that are not so little and we take for granted. How to be thankful, how to forget about the things that are not worth remembering, how to forgive, how to smile when things don’t go as planned and mostly how to love just to love and not expecting anything back. No wonder the Bible says we should be like children… I see my kid smile and my heart melts for him. I imagine how God sees His children and hopes we are more like little kids, how He wants good things for us and how much He loves to see us happy. To me my child is a little window of God’s amazing love. I don’t deserve all the good things that I have, and I’m not always thankful for what I have and even though I’m not perfect He still loves me for what I am and for all the good things He sees I can be. I don’t deserve this little cute gift God sent me but I got my baby and Jr in a way has taught me a lot more about God and how amazing He is and His love and mercy are!

Today I decided to write this blog about my child but my child was given to me by God, so here this blog goes to The Amazing God I serve and to the beautiful child He gave me.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MY BABY LORD.

The first pic is one of my favorites of my Jr... Look at that smile and those eyes... I love him.

The other one is a recen pic...Soooo Cute!