My Child, My Teacher!

It's been 6 days since the day I quit my job andI've been taking full care of my child...I have to admit I’m exhausted...I am tired sleepy hungry and sore. I went back to work after I had Jr...He was only 6 months old and I guess I lost track of how much he is grown since then. He has changed so much, time went so fast. I remember like it was yesterday that I got pregnant ( By the way, I loved to be pregnant... I loved my belly and and I even felt the most beautiful pregnant woman in the world....I did) I even remember the first time we got home with this cute little baby and we would stare at him for hours not even knowing what to do or to expect... I never thought he would be this cute and I can't even express the love I feel for him. Today he wants to be a big boy... He doesn't need so much help doing things... He doesn't talk that much yet (He only says mama, papa, ma(which he calls my mom) and emo(which is Elmo) ahi esta and no) but still will let you know exactly what he wants. Now that he is 16 months I've started to notice how much he is like Edgar and me. He is kind of grumpy sometimes...and gets frustrated easily when he can't do or get something he wants...Jr likes things his way or he wont like it...Just like me!
And he is so sweet and silly just like his daddy. He is really fast to learn and quickly picks up what you are telling him. Now, he wants us to play with him all the time and even chooses the song he wants me to sing when he is going to sleep (He likes "Los 3 Cochinitos" de Cri-cri 'El Grillito Cantor') He lets me know when he wants me to change his diapers...He doesn't like to wear soggy diapers, he demands to be changed immediately and loves wearing cologne ( he wears the Kung Fu Panda Cologne). Lately he is obsessed with Elmo... the doll, the books, balloons, posters and the song but he doesn't like to watch the whole cartoon. He likes to scream 'gooooool' when daddy is watching soccer but still doesn't get he is not suppose to scream when the opponents score... He loves dancing, he really enjoys that part of church...Music, specially since he found out his daddy plays the drums, so now I have a hard time trying to keep him in his seat because he wants to run to the altar with daddy to play the drums. He loves cookies...pretty much any kind of cookie. Jr loves taking showers and playing with water he gets exited doing things just like us. He amazes me every single day and some days I learn even more from him than he learns from me. Babies are little persons with feeling and goals, with good days and bad days, with smiles and tears, with accomplishments and frustrations... But one thing I've learned from him is that no matter how many times he tries to do something and fails, even thought he might cry and get frustrated, he keeps trying until he gets what he wants. My child is teaching me how to be a mommy, how to be his friend when he wants to play, or when he feels down, even how to be a better daughter and how to be a better person… How to be exited about the little things in life because there are many little things in life that are not so little and we take for granted. How to be thankful, how to forget about the things that are not worth remembering, how to forgive, how to smile when things don’t go as planned and mostly how to love just to love and not expecting anything back. No wonder the Bible says we should be like children… I see my kid smile and my heart melts for him. I imagine how God sees His children and hopes we are more like little kids, how He wants good things for us and how much He loves to see us happy. To me my child is a little window of God’s amazing love. I don’t deserve all the good things that I have, and I’m not always thankful for what I have and even though I’m not perfect He still loves me for what I am and for all the good things He sees I can be. I don’t deserve this little cute gift God sent me but I got my baby and Jr in a way has taught me a lot more about God and how amazing He is and His love and mercy are!

Today I decided to write this blog about my child but my child was given to me by God, so here this blog goes to The Amazing God I serve and to the beautiful child He gave me.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MY BABY LORD.

The first pic is one of my favorites of my Jr... Look at that smile and those eyes... I love him.

The other one is a recen pic...Soooo Cute!

God Still Is God

I had not written another blog because...because... I think...I just wasn't in the mood. For the last 3 weeks I felt like nothing was going my way...I like to be in control of stuff...I'm always planning everything...and if it doesn't come out the way I planned I'll get frustrated. And the past months I had been frustrated. Why? I had so many things planned...a vacation...fixing the car...buying stuff... getting my baby stuff...save money...pay off debts. The thing is that just when I made up my mind and planned everything I wanted to do, things starting to fall apart. Here I am with all my plans seeing how everything is going the wrong way...at least not the way I wanted things to happen. I turned to God then, I was frustrated, mad, sad, and I asked why?... why now?
He was really fast to answer...clearly too, and the answer frustrated me even more. How could he ask me to do something like that... It didn't make any sense...Not to me or my plans!
Then He reminded me when I planned other things before in my life and didn't go my way...like after I had broken up with a boyfriend and I was depressed and just when I decided I wouldn't fall again. I met my husband and I didn't plan it...But it was the best timing... Edgar has been the sweetest to me, he is the love of my life and he is nothing compared to anybody before him, not even closer...

Then we got married and I decided I wanted children and couldn't get pregnant... I lost 2 babies, both during the first weeks...and I cried and cried...and gave up, so then I decided not to keep trying and not have children until we had things together as planned(for me). I went to get My family control, when they called my name and put me in a room, a nurse comes in and says:"Congratulations, You Are Pregnant!"... What? Me Pregnant?...How?(ok guys...I know how I got pregnant...What I mean is...) It was not in my plans..and yes...I was SO Pregnant... At the time we were going through a really, really bad time...We dind't have our own place and we were unemployed...Why now?
That baby gave us the new reason we needed to make sure we had everything together before he came to the world. We needed a reason and There I had my reason...
Edgar Talamantes Jr.





Before he was born, we manage to get our own place and all the little things he needed...just in time...
He was born Friday March 21st, 2008 @ 9:20pm...
His dad dind't work that friday...So he was able to be there with me and Jr. all weekend. Perfection!...And I couldn't plan it or else I would've! ;-) ...but it was perfect!
Unfortunately we had to move out our place because of my baby's health(There was a lot humidity in the apartment and it was causing him asthma problems =(...)
So now we rent a room at my moms house which works really good cause she takes care of Jr. while I work. But that wasn't in our plans either...Just when we moved Edgar was laid off...If we would've stayed in our place I don't think we were going to make it. Moving in @ my parents place wasn't in the plans... I love them so much and they are the best but definitely not in the plans...But I’m so Thankful for all their help.
So this summer we wanted to take a vacation, we need one long vacation...is been 2 long years or more since the last one we took..and that was before Jr. Edgar was still working some days a week so I planned this 5 day long vacation for the 3 of us. Edgar wasn't able to work a day since then...That was killing all the plans.
We had been struggling with finances lately and God just asked for the unthinkable...
Quitting My Job!
What?... My job..But I love it...Its the first job I love and to quit it when I need it the most...You wanna know what he said....
"Edgar Jr. needs you even more"..."I'm in control"
But that wasn't in the plans. I know I had another reason to quit...Don't get this wrong I love working there, I've made a lot of friends and "Z"...I love that guy...he is the nicest, kindest, greatest boss ever...I don't think I will ever have another boss like him in my life, and by the way it has nothing to do with him...Never!
But it was time to make a decision a really hard one...Was I going to control our situation or let God do it...Which means waiting and depending completely on Him... Those who have done it know what I mean...God is Good...God is Awesome...God is Faithful..God is Dependable... God is always on time! God is and Still is God...Weather I decide to trust him or not...To follow my plan or His plan he will still be God.
So here I decided to let him be God...And just when I thought time we were running out of time and resources He showed me His Amazing Grace and Love for us.
Yup, Im quitting my job and I will be staying home taking care of my family, I will soon go back to college and get a better education for me and to be able to go back to work once my baby is in elementary school (see, here I am Planning my future again...But if he changes things around...I know it would be perfect...I know HE IS) Going back to school and to the ministry means a lot to me. Some of you might think I’m crazy..Well I guess I am...But I am the happiest of all because I know I can trust Him.
He has been there for me all this time...messing up my plans to make my life better.
His ways are better than mine...His plans are better than mine...
So here I am in this journey...This adventure which I didn't plan... I trust Him and I have peace in my heart and mind knowing that He is God...My God, who has always been there for me...This won't be an exception!



Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a man's heart,
but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

Jeremiah 29 11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD,