You are a mysterious God and I love you

And He said...
" It would've been the same thing"
Have you ever wondered how things would've been if you had made other choices in life?
I did, not too long ago. I even post it on facebook.. "I wish I was 14 again".
I started wondering if my life would've been better or worst... I started doubting my choices and questioning myself in so many ways.
On Saturday I had a dinner with the Jovenes Adultos at my friend's house. She came up with the subject from out of nowhere... She was sharing her friends experience, she was questioning herself just like me, but she went further. This girl actually went to look for this person that she thought would've changed her life... And at the begining everything seemed perfectly, some time went by and she notice that it was actually her visualizing things like this but nothing was even close to perfect. It was actually just nonsense... And she thought to herself that it wasn't worth it so she walked away from this person. And she said "It would've been the same thing".
But I wasn't listening to my friends voice... It was actually God talking to my life, to my heart.
Hey, I wasn't questioning my marriage... Because like I said before I know God made 'us' for each other. And yes there had been times I have questioned my marriage, because I was mad, because times were rough, because things didn't go my way... But always at the end, in the middle of the madness of our lives we know we have each other and we love each other and I thank God for that.
This time I was questioning myself about the people I had put on a side on my life. The people I decided to walk away from. The friendships I decided were not worth it. The choices I think changed my life... Yes,
Maybe I did questioned my marriage... Because a lot of the choices I would've changed May have taken me really far from where I'm standing at. But no way... I love my husband and my son means everything to me! But in the middle of my questioning God said.. It would've been the same thing.
Things are the way we see them... My life, my husband, my son, the ministry could be perfect, but if I don't think it's worth it then it won't. Our choices may had taken us really far from where we started or where we would've love to be at but nothing would make us happy If we don't apreciate what we have, whom we have and what we do.
Today I know that I love my life and everything in it, it's not close to even being perfect... It's rough on some sides, but it's worth every second of it and I'm thankful for it!!!
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Remember those days when I used to write blogs!!!

Yep, those were the days... But I'll come back... I still have so much to say!!! Keep checking!
But for now.... I wish you a Merry Christmas!
God Bless!

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My Child, My Teacher!

It's been 6 days since the day I quit my job andI've been taking full care of my child...I have to admit I’m exhausted...I am tired sleepy hungry and sore. I went back to work after I had Jr...He was only 6 months old and I guess I lost track of how much he is grown since then. He has changed so much, time went so fast. I remember like it was yesterday that I got pregnant ( By the way, I loved to be pregnant... I loved my belly and and I even felt the most beautiful pregnant woman in the world....I did) I even remember the first time we got home with this cute little baby and we would stare at him for hours not even knowing what to do or to expect... I never thought he would be this cute and I can't even express the love I feel for him. Today he wants to be a big boy... He doesn't need so much help doing things... He doesn't talk that much yet (He only says mama, papa, ma(which he calls my mom) and emo(which is Elmo) ahi esta and no) but still will let you know exactly what he wants. Now that he is 16 months I've started to notice how much he is like Edgar and me. He is kind of grumpy sometimes...and gets frustrated easily when he can't do or get something he wants...Jr likes things his way or he wont like it...Just like me!
And he is so sweet and silly just like his daddy. He is really fast to learn and quickly picks up what you are telling him. Now, he wants us to play with him all the time and even chooses the song he wants me to sing when he is going to sleep (He likes "Los 3 Cochinitos" de Cri-cri 'El Grillito Cantor') He lets me know when he wants me to change his diapers...He doesn't like to wear soggy diapers, he demands to be changed immediately and loves wearing cologne ( he wears the Kung Fu Panda Cologne). Lately he is obsessed with Elmo... the doll, the books, balloons, posters and the song but he doesn't like to watch the whole cartoon. He likes to scream 'gooooool' when daddy is watching soccer but still doesn't get he is not suppose to scream when the opponents score... He loves dancing, he really enjoys that part of church...Music, specially since he found out his daddy plays the drums, so now I have a hard time trying to keep him in his seat because he wants to run to the altar with daddy to play the drums. He loves cookies...pretty much any kind of cookie. Jr loves taking showers and playing with water he gets exited doing things just like us. He amazes me every single day and some days I learn even more from him than he learns from me. Babies are little persons with feeling and goals, with good days and bad days, with smiles and tears, with accomplishments and frustrations... But one thing I've learned from him is that no matter how many times he tries to do something and fails, even thought he might cry and get frustrated, he keeps trying until he gets what he wants. My child is teaching me how to be a mommy, how to be his friend when he wants to play, or when he feels down, even how to be a better daughter and how to be a better person… How to be exited about the little things in life because there are many little things in life that are not so little and we take for granted. How to be thankful, how to forget about the things that are not worth remembering, how to forgive, how to smile when things don’t go as planned and mostly how to love just to love and not expecting anything back. No wonder the Bible says we should be like children… I see my kid smile and my heart melts for him. I imagine how God sees His children and hopes we are more like little kids, how He wants good things for us and how much He loves to see us happy. To me my child is a little window of God’s amazing love. I don’t deserve all the good things that I have, and I’m not always thankful for what I have and even though I’m not perfect He still loves me for what I am and for all the good things He sees I can be. I don’t deserve this little cute gift God sent me but I got my baby and Jr in a way has taught me a lot more about God and how amazing He is and His love and mercy are!

Today I decided to write this blog about my child but my child was given to me by God, so here this blog goes to The Amazing God I serve and to the beautiful child He gave me.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MY BABY LORD.

The first pic is one of my favorites of my Jr... Look at that smile and those eyes... I love him.

The other one is a recen pic...Soooo Cute!

God Still Is God

I had not written another blog because...because... I think...I just wasn't in the mood. For the last 3 weeks I felt like nothing was going my way...I like to be in control of stuff...I'm always planning everything...and if it doesn't come out the way I planned I'll get frustrated. And the past months I had been frustrated. Why? I had so many things planned...a vacation...fixing the car...buying stuff... getting my baby stuff...save money...pay off debts. The thing is that just when I made up my mind and planned everything I wanted to do, things starting to fall apart. Here I am with all my plans seeing how everything is going the wrong way...at least not the way I wanted things to happen. I turned to God then, I was frustrated, mad, sad, and I asked why?... why now?
He was really fast to answer...clearly too, and the answer frustrated me even more. How could he ask me to do something like that... It didn't make any sense...Not to me or my plans!
Then He reminded me when I planned other things before in my life and didn't go my way...like after I had broken up with a boyfriend and I was depressed and just when I decided I wouldn't fall again. I met my husband and I didn't plan it...But it was the best timing... Edgar has been the sweetest to me, he is the love of my life and he is nothing compared to anybody before him, not even closer...

Then we got married and I decided I wanted children and couldn't get pregnant... I lost 2 babies, both during the first weeks...and I cried and cried...and gave up, so then I decided not to keep trying and not have children until we had things together as planned(for me). I went to get My family control, when they called my name and put me in a room, a nurse comes in and says:"Congratulations, You Are Pregnant!"... What? Me Pregnant?...How?(ok guys...I know how I got pregnant...What I mean is...) It was not in my plans..and yes...I was SO Pregnant... At the time we were going through a really, really bad time...We dind't have our own place and we were unemployed...Why now?
That baby gave us the new reason we needed to make sure we had everything together before he came to the world. We needed a reason and There I had my reason...
Edgar Talamantes Jr.





Before he was born, we manage to get our own place and all the little things he needed...just in time...
He was born Friday March 21st, 2008 @ 9:20pm...
His dad dind't work that friday...So he was able to be there with me and Jr. all weekend. Perfection!...And I couldn't plan it or else I would've! ;-) ...but it was perfect!
Unfortunately we had to move out our place because of my baby's health(There was a lot humidity in the apartment and it was causing him asthma problems =(...)
So now we rent a room at my moms house which works really good cause she takes care of Jr. while I work. But that wasn't in our plans either...Just when we moved Edgar was laid off...If we would've stayed in our place I don't think we were going to make it. Moving in @ my parents place wasn't in the plans... I love them so much and they are the best but definitely not in the plans...But I’m so Thankful for all their help.
So this summer we wanted to take a vacation, we need one long vacation...is been 2 long years or more since the last one we took..and that was before Jr. Edgar was still working some days a week so I planned this 5 day long vacation for the 3 of us. Edgar wasn't able to work a day since then...That was killing all the plans.
We had been struggling with finances lately and God just asked for the unthinkable...
Quitting My Job!
What?... My job..But I love it...Its the first job I love and to quit it when I need it the most...You wanna know what he said....
"Edgar Jr. needs you even more"..."I'm in control"
But that wasn't in the plans. I know I had another reason to quit...Don't get this wrong I love working there, I've made a lot of friends and "Z"...I love that guy...he is the nicest, kindest, greatest boss ever...I don't think I will ever have another boss like him in my life, and by the way it has nothing to do with him...Never!
But it was time to make a decision a really hard one...Was I going to control our situation or let God do it...Which means waiting and depending completely on Him... Those who have done it know what I mean...God is Good...God is Awesome...God is Faithful..God is Dependable... God is always on time! God is and Still is God...Weather I decide to trust him or not...To follow my plan or His plan he will still be God.
So here I decided to let him be God...And just when I thought time we were running out of time and resources He showed me His Amazing Grace and Love for us.
Yup, Im quitting my job and I will be staying home taking care of my family, I will soon go back to college and get a better education for me and to be able to go back to work once my baby is in elementary school (see, here I am Planning my future again...But if he changes things around...I know it would be perfect...I know HE IS) Going back to school and to the ministry means a lot to me. Some of you might think I’m crazy..Well I guess I am...But I am the happiest of all because I know I can trust Him.
He has been there for me all this time...messing up my plans to make my life better.
His ways are better than mine...His plans are better than mine...
So here I am in this journey...This adventure which I didn't plan... I trust Him and I have peace in my heart and mind knowing that He is God...My God, who has always been there for me...This won't be an exception!



Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a man's heart,
but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

Jeremiah 29 11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD,

My Sisters

"A sister is both your mirror - and your opposite."

I've been super blessed with 3 little sisters...But have to admit I wished I was the only child many times. Now that I'm older I appreciate them because they are wonderful and I just love them with all my heart.
Lucia...She is 22 and has two kids....Aaliah, 6 yrs, and Nicolas, 1 1/2, and she is married to Juan Pablo. Then Maritza... She is 17. Then Daniela Sarai... She is 5.
I love them all....

Lucia is the kindest of them all....She is the kindest and would never put anybody down....I used to fight with her when we were little...she would cry a lot...for everything and I have to admit I was kind of mean to her sometimes... Now that we are older we don't fight anymore. We don't always agree because she is extra nice... People could be mean to her and she would still be nice and kind... She is like a little girl...she would dance the High School musical with her daughter and play like a baby with her son and mine too... She loves pink eyeshadow and while she was in high school she would only wear Baby Blue and Baby Pink...She knows all the little kids songs. She is very sentimental, you can hurt her feelings easily...But she remains kind...I don't know how she does it...but anyway...She cooks really good...MMMM-MMMM..Oh yes she does... As you should know by now her greatest quality is "Kindness"...

Maritza is the sweetest one... She won't say no to you just not to hurt your feelings when you ask for something... so she is always there if you need help. She Loves God and texting on the phone. Maritza cares a lot for people specially her friends... She is the kind of girl that cries if something bad or really nice happens on a movie. She is a good listener and would always keep your secrets. She is always there when I need to talk to somebody. She is a really noble and humble girl....You don't need much to excite her...She's always exited about something. Her nickname is "Giggle Monster"...You want to know why?....Tell her a joke and find out for yourself...Careful!...She can be very loud...but I wouldn't change a thing from her. She is very sincere and would always find a way to let you know in the nicest way possible! She helps me a lot with my baby and she is the one that is constantly kissing and hugging the kids around the house... So as you should know by now, her greatest quality is.."She is a good friend"...

Daniela...Lets just say she has "The Little Sister Syndrome"....It's her way or no way...What I mean by this is that she is very conscious she is the little sister.... I get home and she would say...Hello Big Sister...She even has a shirt that says..."I'm the little sister" and she wont take it off. Dany is really attached to my parents and wont share their time or affection...she gets mad..Why?...Because she is the little sister. You can't say no to her...She gets mad...Why? Because she is the little sister. Daniela looks up to Maritza.... She wants to do and wear everything just like Mary. She loves taking pictures of herself and when she learns a new song, she wont stop singing it until she learns a new one. My mom says Dany is my clone...She looks like me when I was little...The only difference is that she was born with these gorgeous eyelashes and I didn't. She loves Jr a lot...Just as she loves Aaliah and Nicolas. She asks me to bring her chocolates but she always makes sure Aaliah gets one too. So as you should know by now her greatest quality is..."Being the little sister"...No, I'm Kidding...She is the Cutest of them all...Sorry, is the truth...Remember... she looks just like me!...LOL.

So here... this post goes to my beautiful little sisters who are always there for me...I love you so much!

Happy Father's Day To My Husband And My Daddy!

Tomorrow I'm going out with my husband to celebrate father's day. Like I said on my last post I'm blessed with a husband that love me and my Little Man... Edgar is crazy about his little guy and takes good care of him...He takes him to the park or outside to play soccer...and I have to say... my son is really good at it, just like daddy. I just wanted to let him know how thankful I am for all his help. Love you babe!
My Dad....is my hero...He is the kind of guy that tells you he would be there are 2pm...he will be there no matter what happens... he is so reliable. I remember when I used to go to the hardware store and ask him what things work for and he knew for what every single thing worked for....I thought he was super smart...and he is but I've learned so many other things of him and I'm thankful for him and the education he gave us....Love you daddy!

Edgar...

My husband is not the kind of guy you meet everyday... That's why I'm so blessed to have him in my life and to be his wife. He is everything I'm not... but we have something in common and that is the love we share for each other. This love I can't explain... the constant need for each other. We can be mad at each other and annoy each other but still be madly in love. Weird uh?... Yeah I still can't understand it myself. To those who know him, you might like him or not...you might think he is nice, or mean. I know he can be rude and mean...but trust me...He doesn't even know or mean to be like that... hey, I've been married with him for 3 years... I Should know him, and oh yes I do. Believe me, I didn't like him my self the first time I met him. He was making fun of this girl...I didn't like that. But once I knew him I just fell in love...
And I don't want you to fall for him too because he is mine now... What I mean is that you need time to get to know him... He won't open himself that fast... that's the problem... He won't show much emotion about anything or anybody except me, our son and soccer. So he thinks that by being funny hi is going to be liked...and believe me... he doesn't care if his is liked or not...he just tries.. for some people works, for others don't....but he is my husband and I know who he really is, and because of who he is I love him. He is not perfect just the way I'm not perfect either. All I can say about him is that I love him and that he is the man that God created for me...How do I know?... I just do...Is this force that keeps us together...That is God...Who is #1 in our lives...We love God before each other. We've been through good, bad and really bad...Only God and we know....but it was during those times that love kept us together... We are still in the process of learning how to manage our home and our family...We don't always agree, but I'm fortunate to have a husband that loves me so much and cares so much about his family that would go out his way to please me. He has supported me when nobody else did and when I've messed up I look back and he was standing next to me. Unfortunately, he can't say that about me because when he messed up I was in front of him to throw it at his face... I'm still at the process of learning to stand next to him no matter what...I'm doing much better....I have understood that we are in this together and by the end of the day we only have each other and our son. He has taught me there is much to life than keeping things neat... that is ok to make messes sometimes, that life is to short to be worried about what others think about us and that we need to forgive in order to be happy. He is not only a good husband but the best daddy... I should say he is a better mom than I am. He cares for his son in a way I never imagined him, and Jr knows it. There is no surprise that he wants daddy most of the time. He always helps me around the house and keeps my dreams alive when I'm about to give up... He doesn't have always the right words to say to me or what he feels for me but he surely lets me know in so many other ways. So here is to The love of my life, my Best Friend during good, bad and worst times... he who loves me everyday ... I read in a marriage advice book this question...
Just think for a minute how would it be married to yourself?....Jajaja...My poor husband, he got it worst than I do...and for this and so many other reasons I love him and I will always stand next to him too. I Love You So Much Edgar!

Song of Solomon 8:6-7 (New International Version)

⁶ Place me like a seal over your heart,
like a seal on your arm;
for love is as strong as death,
its jealousy unyielding as the grave.
It burns like blazing fire,
like a mighty flame.

⁷ Many waters cannot quench love;
rivers cannot wash it away.
If one were to give
all the wealth of his house for love,
it would be utterly scorned.

Ok....So here we go....

I decided to start a blog because I have a lot to say, just like everybody else. Most of my inspiration came from my friend Diandra, she is good at this (doing blogs). I follow her blogs and I'm always exited to see her next blog. I don't promise to write a blog every day or every week, but I will try my hardest to keep you posted on what's going on with me and my loved ones.
I've always write the way I feel on little notes, pieces of paper, notebooks etc....so no now I decided do it using this wonderful technology which I like so much!.... I do have a Myspace... Suany Talamantes.
My screen name es Gorgeous....Why? That's the way my husband calls me....so if you don't agree...I'm sorry...Deal with it...I am Gorgeous.... And so are you! My e-mail is snykatzin@yahoo.com and I'm at Facebook too! Sny Talamntes. And I'm on Twitter too...but I still don't get it that much...so try the other ones better... Pictures? Well, I'm not using my computer at the time so I cant upload my pics but as soon as I have a chance i will post some pics and other things. I would love to hear from you.... good or bad...but please use your name...
"Life is full of moments...and I will like to share mine with you!..."
Take care!