God Still Is God

I had not written another blog because...because... I think...I just wasn't in the mood. For the last 3 weeks I felt like nothing was going my way...I like to be in control of stuff...I'm always planning everything...and if it doesn't come out the way I planned I'll get frustrated. And the past months I had been frustrated. Why? I had so many things planned...a vacation...fixing the car...buying stuff... getting my baby stuff...save money...pay off debts. The thing is that just when I made up my mind and planned everything I wanted to do, things starting to fall apart. Here I am with all my plans seeing how everything is going the wrong way...at least not the way I wanted things to happen. I turned to God then, I was frustrated, mad, sad, and I asked why?... why now?
He was really fast to answer...clearly too, and the answer frustrated me even more. How could he ask me to do something like that... It didn't make any sense...Not to me or my plans!
Then He reminded me when I planned other things before in my life and didn't go my way...like after I had broken up with a boyfriend and I was depressed and just when I decided I wouldn't fall again. I met my husband and I didn't plan it...But it was the best timing... Edgar has been the sweetest to me, he is the love of my life and he is nothing compared to anybody before him, not even closer...

Then we got married and I decided I wanted children and couldn't get pregnant... I lost 2 babies, both during the first weeks...and I cried and cried...and gave up, so then I decided not to keep trying and not have children until we had things together as planned(for me). I went to get My family control, when they called my name and put me in a room, a nurse comes in and says:"Congratulations, You Are Pregnant!"... What? Me Pregnant?...How?(ok guys...I know how I got pregnant...What I mean is...) It was not in my plans..and yes...I was SO Pregnant... At the time we were going through a really, really bad time...We dind't have our own place and we were unemployed...Why now?
That baby gave us the new reason we needed to make sure we had everything together before he came to the world. We needed a reason and There I had my reason...
Edgar Talamantes Jr.





Before he was born, we manage to get our own place and all the little things he needed...just in time...
He was born Friday March 21st, 2008 @ 9:20pm...
His dad dind't work that friday...So he was able to be there with me and Jr. all weekend. Perfection!...And I couldn't plan it or else I would've! ;-) ...but it was perfect!
Unfortunately we had to move out our place because of my baby's health(There was a lot humidity in the apartment and it was causing him asthma problems =(...)
So now we rent a room at my moms house which works really good cause she takes care of Jr. while I work. But that wasn't in our plans either...Just when we moved Edgar was laid off...If we would've stayed in our place I don't think we were going to make it. Moving in @ my parents place wasn't in the plans... I love them so much and they are the best but definitely not in the plans...But I’m so Thankful for all their help.
So this summer we wanted to take a vacation, we need one long vacation...is been 2 long years or more since the last one we took..and that was before Jr. Edgar was still working some days a week so I planned this 5 day long vacation for the 3 of us. Edgar wasn't able to work a day since then...That was killing all the plans.
We had been struggling with finances lately and God just asked for the unthinkable...
Quitting My Job!
What?... My job..But I love it...Its the first job I love and to quit it when I need it the most...You wanna know what he said....
"Edgar Jr. needs you even more"..."I'm in control"
But that wasn't in the plans. I know I had another reason to quit...Don't get this wrong I love working there, I've made a lot of friends and "Z"...I love that guy...he is the nicest, kindest, greatest boss ever...I don't think I will ever have another boss like him in my life, and by the way it has nothing to do with him...Never!
But it was time to make a decision a really hard one...Was I going to control our situation or let God do it...Which means waiting and depending completely on Him... Those who have done it know what I mean...God is Good...God is Awesome...God is Faithful..God is Dependable... God is always on time! God is and Still is God...Weather I decide to trust him or not...To follow my plan or His plan he will still be God.
So here I decided to let him be God...And just when I thought time we were running out of time and resources He showed me His Amazing Grace and Love for us.
Yup, Im quitting my job and I will be staying home taking care of my family, I will soon go back to college and get a better education for me and to be able to go back to work once my baby is in elementary school (see, here I am Planning my future again...But if he changes things around...I know it would be perfect...I know HE IS) Going back to school and to the ministry means a lot to me. Some of you might think I’m crazy..Well I guess I am...But I am the happiest of all because I know I can trust Him.
He has been there for me all this time...messing up my plans to make my life better.
His ways are better than mine...His plans are better than mine...
So here I am in this journey...This adventure which I didn't plan... I trust Him and I have peace in my heart and mind knowing that He is God...My God, who has always been there for me...This won't be an exception!



Proverbs 19:21
Many are the plans in a man's heart,
but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

Jeremiah 29 11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD,